Fuming, yet compressing. ;(

I've wanted to started this post w/ a apologetic way.
But i kept thinking, and th things which are slowly happening,
isn't adding on to my happiness. Instead, i'm feeling more and more helpless!
Happpppy mood? ... Hw to be? W/ everything being so f-kedup.
Tel me. Gwar. Let me try to post what i wanted to post. Altho,
now i don't really feel like saying what i'm gna say. Bt it's what i meant earlier
at some points. So, i guess it will be what i meant soon, when i'm happier.

Firsly, today i came to realised i haven't. Been a gd daughter.
I shld have always be more understanding.
Nt calling mum crazy at all times, and trying to find fault and argue w/
her at any single slightest thing. (Okay, i'm still mad, ! -.-)
I shldn't say tht of her. Just because i know tht she's nt actually like tht.
I know tht she can be really nice. And all her f-kedup nonsenses only
happens when she's in a badmood. So i say she's crazy when her nonsenses start.
Just because, i don't wna have ppl have a bad impression or diff impression of her.
I shld, be more understanding. I shld try to listen to her more..
I shld try to help out.. i shldn't add more to her problems..
She has far more probs to settle then me. Haven't i failed badly, as a daughter?

Next. I'm feeling soooooooooooooooooooooo.
I don't wna type out. -.-
It's nt easy to.he.ts.fp .
I shld really ty.to.cl.my.ar lah!
I also don't want! Bt, it's like.
Hr.ae.ce yes, it did. Bt.hr.ll.ae.is.nw.fs.on.me. sort of.
I dno hw to explain lah. I feel terrible.
I.dt.wa.kp.bg.te.oe.to.ge.way.
Oe.dy.i.ao.ct.te.it.de.lh. -.-
Shyt it. plus, i.gs.i.cn.oy.be.eg.up.to.mf.lh.
Ce.it's.le.ne.se.me. -.-
Le.en.if.te.is, i.s't.bh.lh.
i's.le.i.d't.wt.ts.fp.to.ny.ed.an.
I.kp.pg.of.bs.fr. nw? I'm.ay.fg.so.blah.ce.of.hr.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
words said no more. Kelly pls learn to control yr anger.
Or. Be prepared to lose Everything. Including yrself.
Learn. Thre's always a start. Always a first.

Anyway. No one understands me.
I feel so.... Desperate and helpless.
Okay, maybe thre is. Bt i seriously don't feel it now.
I keep thinking of putting myself in others shoes!
Bt i can't! I feel so. helpless. haisx.

As what viv said before, ♥.

I want to be tgt w/ you.

Bt nt officially tgt w/ you.