Mood - Depressed, regretful, sryful, Mixed.

I am such Shitass.

Why me, to be deprived of happiness each time? WHY.

We are all th same right,

So why choose me always?
Show me the light.

Ahem, th purpose of this yet-another-blah post is ...

This time is ...

To apologise. To Eric Zhang.

For? Fr making him fall down. :/

Firstly, who was I to care?! I know. It. was. Of. Course. None. Of. My. F-king. Business. Yet, i just had to be so playful and just cause Eric to fall down. Why am i sucha idiot?! Wtfu, Everyone didn't give a hella shyt bt yet you just have to be so playful, why? I just don't understand. Why i even do tht?!?!?!? I dno either. You cause injury to yr fellow classmate and what for? I dno why dha hell did I do tht and cause Eric to fall. Like hey, who in th right mind will do tht right? Srysrysry, i'm just so playful. :/ I Didn't know you wld fall ...

Sucha person like me is so nonsense. It's probably close to extinction lah, i think is of a rare and weird species lah, F*. Hw cld I? Zz ... You might read this and go thinking it's nth & whatever & lame, bt if you saw what happen , hw i just fr nth purposely pushed back th chair at Eric when he was running so fast aft J. Then you'll know why. I am sucha idiot loser, Fucktard. I feel so guilty. I doubt Eric Ever sees this even, bt just sry lah!! Wahlao, I'm like so looking fr trouble. I shld have just sat thre cont. listening to music and cont. rotting like i'm always am. Bt i just had to be bored and playful to cause him to fall very hard. Seriously, at tht time, I swore I just wanted time to stop thre okay, felt so much like hiding in a corner. (Of course, tht was impossible) I just dno hw to face all tht saw what happen okay. Bored at th expense of one's injury? Hw low can i get.

I feel like just vanishing at times like this.

So sorry. :(

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And yrs truly failed 2 subjects as th papers themselves. (Wow)

Flunking my MYE/s Badly. BADLY.

To add on, fr a very long time, i haven't been studying so hard,

Or well, even studying. This is my reward? Thinks man, this is so great.

Wait, is my lousy results mean to be an encouragement or discouragement fr me to study hard uh? I'm just alittle confuse here you see. .l.

Anxious to see my results eh?

Fr th papers only (When converted to 100%)

Chinese - A2 , 74.

Science - E8, 43.

History - C6, 50.

Maths - F9 , 30.

English - B4, 62.
Literature - C5.

Geography - A2, 71.

Home Econs - A1, 80.

See tht? Altho 3A/s bt kns lah, counting on th efforts i put in.

I dno hw th hell did i get those marks?

And surprisely Sci, History, Maths, geog are th subjects tht i studied MOST.

And yes, what did i get? No doubt, history passed, i improve.

But Sci and Maths both impt subjects i fail until like tht.

Mostly anyone like gt higher than me . I'm so discouraged w/ this marks.

Just byebye. Quit laughing at my marks.

Th more I worried,

Th more everything went out of place and wrong.

Th more I tired,

Th more everything just came apart.

Th more I wanted smth,

Th more I wldn't get it.

This is life, sadly.

"I miss th mornings whre i'll wake up to msgs or missed calls.

But that's alright , cause i knew from the start ,only the true stays."