Once upon a time, thre was Kelly.

Today ...

I thought,
"It's over.
Everything tht's part of me it's all gone.
It's all over ... "

But somehow, I'm nt quite sure of it anymore? ..

Today, my mother once again screwed everything up.
This time, terribly and she did it too over - far too over.
I can nvr forget what she'd done.
If just based on what she'd fuckingly said out,
I'd lost everything. I tell you, you wld have see.

C'mn on .

We've come to this point whre it's nt abt forgiving and not.
It nows concern even my frens. Hey know what? Fuckyou !
Biatch. Now, just one phrase - Bad mood is NOT gna get you out.
Cause words said can't be taken back. Esp, hurtful ones.

I don't know what I'd did.
That to think, you wld want to take almost everything away.
I mean like, intentionally/ not intentionally ... I don't care. Neither do it matter. Anymore.

I cldn't take it, as I thought abt almost alot of things.
Tears - I cldn't control them. I tried my best, to control alrd.
Hw many times must I do this? I wonder
Why diff families, they've diff ways
I try my best, it'll nvr make you happy
Yes, mayb fr awhile , then when it's back to yr "Bad Mood" period, thre it all goes away.

At one point of time, I thought "Wow, this is the greatest birthday present you can ever give me this year. Take away everything, thinking you're changing whatever fuck you ain't please w/ (Bt actually th fault doesn't even lies on me). And then on tht day, you'll try th hell outta yrself to please me, bt will it help? "

No, woman you've to understand.
Even if they were words of anger and to vent yr stress or whatever,
You can nvr do this . And worst, to yr daughter.
Other things, I cld have tolerate. I tolerated all yr bullshits.
No? You dare tell me? So why else are you doing this right

And thre was th other, when I just thought of giving up everything.
Yes, you gt it right.
I wanted to go missing in this blog, frenster, msn, phone ...
I don't even wish to contact anyone, isn't tht what she want?
Then I thought, studyhard right? Tht's what all parents want right?
Since you so happy, I everyday do work lah. I finish th assessments, happy boh?! ... All and all, y'know, a mindset of a furious teenager. :/
I even wanted to put th new wallet she gave me on her desk.
Then, practically ignore her. Close my door, slp early, leave early. Fullstop
Oh and just turn into a super quiet and no laughter kinda person ( -.- )
Mayb it sounds really silly to you right nw, bt think fr yrself.

In th end, somehow everything turned quite okay fr th rest of th day? Bt I know it still matter. Like this thing will keep lingering arnd, why wldn't it nt?

I know this will affect all of us ...
Like mayb, I'll be like back to square1 .
If you'd understand

I've really come to a point whre I don't wna care so much ...

This year? Probably suck th most.

Mayb you want do whatever shyt to make me feel lousy also can lah. Anybody who wants to, bring it on! Come lah, I wait okay. We see who can stand it longer, me or you. Game set?

Somehow ...
I'm nt going to be all childish and start saying stuffs like ... don't wna talk to tht hag or whatever again. Cause I know it ain't gna happen - I'm just nt tht type of person who can do so, if you understand. So, I'll still be talking to her, yes, she can act like fucking hell she didn't say a damn thing. Or did anything to me. I still remember tho, what she did to me today/ ytd. Fr a lifetime.

My happiness ... She'd to bring them all down.

I guess I don't expect anything frm her alrd?

It's nt i'm nt angry, it's nt anything
I'm damn @#&@*(U! angry now lah.
Bt. To think of it, I know why alrd.
I this type of person is utterly useless,
cause I can nvr bear to ignore my own mother
esp when she's in need.

I know it sounds stupid. I'll change (LOL)

And fag it, I'm feeling super ... unjustified.
I see tht thing , and I understand what y'trying to do.

Nvmind ...

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Bye.