Why. Why. Why. Why.

I'm lazy to post. But it's still long. haha.

- Woke up late.
Rushed my ass to schl
Thought cld still make it
Stupid bus.

- Late, called parent (5th time late)
- Had to spend another 2 bucks again on my 10th(?) Nasian socks? When I'd wore schl socks since awhile ago until today. Damn
- Hp confiscated
- Class - Gt guailan by Mdm Lim (?)
Me & Viv late, she got us standing (No reason)
Classmates "Punished" fr not handing in
Waited fr the last person, which is me
Walks up and pass her paper.
She: "Then why you stand there, darling?"
Me: "Don't know." (Cldn't control laughter)
Had waited fr long. Ass t'cher.

- Wasted 60c into a spoiled machine in canteen
- Boring lessons
- Dnt ended at 12.30pm :)
- Sci supplementary
Marcus also had it/ Later, found out Celestine too :)
I was the only one in my class
Waited, and thought no have alrd
Ended up saw th t'cher and had again
Boring - Talked abt next week's test topic
- Asked to go Jiakang's b'day thing later
- Marcus tried being some dumbass, blahblahblah
Anw thnks Hahaha, skip. And he met Jiakang.
(Oh, happy birthday) Then homed.

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Urgh , I don't get it. Seriously. Why's things have to be so indifferent to me each time? Nevermind , let's not talk about other stuffs. Let's just say this. Why do ev'ryone have like such nice and forever understanding and super great and nice and loving and all family. While mine ? I'm tried of acting.

Argh, nothing partically happened. I just realised, It'll just never be able to turn back to last time. I really miss those times. When we could go out happily, we could chitchat and joke/play around. Disturbing each other, being a very happy bunch of idiots. Dad will be playing with Mum, me and bro. Me and Mum will be talking some stuffs, very nicely. Me and Bro playing around, together. Sharing our secrets late at night, before sleeping. All of us, having late night sleeps, watching the shows playing on television. Even if it's nothing nice. Best, if it's horror shows, and bro will be damn scared and we'll laugh over it. Do you still remember?

I doubt so. As the days increase, our problems added. Communication, they seem a way lot harder than it was back then. Now, every tiny small things, we could all find something to quarrel over. Ain't it? Tired, everyone's tired. Tired of all these. Tired of all the unpleasant between all of us. Somehow or another, it had all accumulated. We had long changed from that happy family to the family it is now. Not that it's a very terrible family now, it's not terrible even, maybe? But, things have just change so much, we've got to admit it. There's alot more quarrels these days. We hardly joke and smile with each other. There's alot more shoutings, naggings and all. Everytime I'd just wanna be that good person, but end up it'll turn even worse. I'll feel lousier. Eventually, I will just heck it. Everyone has their mood, their problems. But in the midst of all our displeasure, we do know that we still love each and everyone of us. We do know we all still do care, we know that we all wanna be there for each other in times of need. But are we able to show our concern when we want to? Sometimes our good intentions will be misunderstood by another's lousy mood. And in the end, we'll just end up quarreling. And feel a goddamn way more terrible. Nowadays, we show our concern in the wrong way. We forget how to be like last time. I guess it'll never be.

And so much more. Need I continue? Anyway, they won't see this. Never. So all these words, will just be left, deep down and slowly, accumulating again. Till one day, we'll let it out. I really want back the past. Everything. I don't know since when, did everything changed. And sadly, even we, as a family, changed too.

Ps/ This wasn't caused by another argument or whatsoever. Things between my family, is still the same and still fine.