Life

I skipped school today, again.

School have been really , skipping of school/classes , being extremely late , slacking , rotting & just being companion to flies , getting back results , stoning , playing , shopping , oh what's not.

Complete boredom comes right after exams. I used to wish for holidays to come, but then again, what can we actually really do?! I hope Mos call us soon, can't wait to start work :) .

School's amazingly boring. Yesterday, parents thought I was skipping school like Kor & didn't wake me. I wanted to go school and only got woke by dearest's call @ 8am. To me, since I was already late, being more late doesn't make a difference. Furthermore, I really wouldn't hope to go in the assembly halfway thru' with hundreds set of eyes looking at you. Or not.

Reached school @ 9am. I waited for security guards to like uhm, record my name? Stop me? But no, i asked them "So how" and one just said like, "The classes all came down already" Like telling me where to go. Alil' confused I walked towards the classes, saw Mr Om, and waited again. Still nothing! I walked straight then went c/room. I'm so gonna be extremely late if I'm gonna be late, even if I'll have some kinda shits.





Chinese lesson came. I went all the way to 4 level to attend. See that f cina face then straight away siandiao , go down to canteen find Viv. Next we skipped lesson and toured around part of the school and camped in the toilet. Bet that gundu t'cher didn't even notice our absence. Dumbchinaass, no, 笨蛋中国屁?

Also got back results yesterday, shits. Talk about them later.

After school yesterday went to Orchard with WanRong, Jasnyn, Itthong, Aini & Itthong's mother. It thong's fam were shopping for their things and we just peied them. Kinda tired at the end of the day. Even though I'd wanted to sleep early, but as usual, I only ended sleeping like at 12plus. Maybe that explains my fatigue today, and my skipping of school today.



That day's homecook steak (Though it looks gross, but it's yummy!) and one of the wine.

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My results are failing me.

Maybe to you, this is just some photo.

But it holds many memories, to me.

I yearn for the past. Wish time can turnback. I miss primary, I miss everyone. How childish, immature & everything. How we never did mind much about our lil' little actions. Just being ourselves.. Sigh, then we grewup. Everyone needs to growup, it's part-and-parcel of life. My, so from the innocent suaku kids we were, we grew to how we are to date. Some grew better, some, worser. But to think back, if we didn't change, are we supposed to be that suaku lil' kid we are, forever? Ofcourse everyone changes. Who don't?

Miss primary school. When, just a pass isn't enough. Not hoping just for a pass .. That feeling. Understand? PSLE totally ruined me. So what if I faired quite good for it? Just 'cos of that fucking 242 score, I came into Ngee Ann. Boy, I'm not clever. No, not even the least. Psle doesn't even matter! Not for that score, I might even be happily studying in Pasir Ris Sec.. Coping well with grades, probably.

People know my score, some go amazed.. Most, they just don't even believe I ever had that score. Judging by my current results, no? But deep down, I feel really demoralized. It's almost like, it doesn't seem to ever happen in my life (Being clever). It's almost like I don't deserve that score. It's almost like ...

I miss y'guys, I miss feeling clever, I miss being above average. I miss scoring well & looking @ my results with such satisfaction. When was the last time?

But it ain't coming back.

Yes , I totally flunked Maths & Science. I'm the only failure for Science paper itself, in my fucking clever class. Second time - the only failure. Although Mr Lee said that 49/100 will be pulled into a pass .. but no doubt, I'm last. I flunked Maths Paper too. I got 12/40 for Paper 1, and 14/50 for Paper 2. Awesome, what course am I to take?!

"It's never too late" ?

Hah, joke. I'm just gonna go into a lousy course, suckbigshit & flunk my life. Like how I've flunk all.