Many things, no time

Hell, I've many things I wanna say. But I doubt I will remember them anyway. :P It's a good things there's no work today.

Class chalet's gonna be like whooping 4 days 3 nights man, i seriously wonder what we're all gonna do. I guess I better remember to bring atleast my ds & ds charger , and ds with loads of games. Or else, I'll die of boredom. And at the meantime, find things to do. But still, I confirm going bah, if not I'll die missing all my clever c/mates :)

Seriously, I'm beginning to wonder how am I gonna survive this holidays. Apparently, I shall be pronounced dead by next year if I continue working like every single , or most days. Gosh, it's goddamn tiring - I swear! And I really wanna enjoy myself , at the same time work too. And plus, gosh it's gonna be 2 months plus till I wear my school uniform and see all my pretty babes & handsome hunks! (If i don't see them) Awwwwww ...

I've many things to do during the fucklong holiday. I really don't know if i can do all those I want to do. it's like so many to do, with like so little time. And even no matter how much I want a break, boy, the time's still ticking. Where do i start!!!

I've been feeling empty these few days. Okay, maybe not only few days but for like the past moments. Ever since ... yeah. Like justnow, when I was trying hard to sleep, I thought of the past again. It's really hard to erase memories y'know? As they say, "When you reach the end, you often tend to remember the beginning" Every detail, big/small, vividly. It's tough. Sighhhh, but no matter what, I know I'd rather face all this then make use of another like how I did for him which result in this. Bitches, y'know what I mean don't you? :(

Today, i was tired b'cos of the past work plus I came my period. I swear this is the most jialat period ever. Stain until afew things, going toilet many times, etc. I feel like a baby! I swear I gave Mummy alot of additional work , ha ha ha. Why is life so unfair!?!! Girls have to undergo such tedious trouble, while boys can like play hard for as long as they live. What world is this?! Fucking unfair.

And also b'cos of that, I was all refusing to go to church with Mummy & Daddy though I wanted to pei them today lah. (Maybe it's a good thing, let them 两人世界 hor? :D - Also, my best time excuse whenever I don't quite wanna go out with them. Haha, but I do try my best!) So I really tried my best sleeping, 'cos I'd wanna sleep yet I couldn't! Hate it! It's really irritating when you've to toss & turn manymany times, then no matter what, you can't sleep! Plus actually, I really wanted to go out, but I was too lazy a bum for it.

Maybe that explains my whole-day-rotting-alone-at-home day. Roar. I've been bored stiff. And hungry ofcourse, it's 6.00pm and I only eaten like 4 pieces of that chwee kueh in the morning. Then later I was kinda tired, and since there were Mummy's visitors, somehow or another Mummy on the aircon for me again. Lastnight too, when she thought that my friends were gonna ton at our house. Which lastmin was cancelled netherless. Ha ha.

Damn hungry earlier, and now less. Oh, that's the problem with me. I'm always like damn hungry and moment later, I won't be hungry anymore. Good thing they've just came back and Mummy's starting to cook her steak once again. Haha! Yipppeeee.

Work, generally have been quite okay. The peope generally are nice and helpful, and those older ones really take good care of us. Except for a china uhm lady, which doesn't please me nor WanRong very much. ha ha, but there's this really cute guy! Pretty sad he's from china. :( So it's like he look damn cute, then later he talk, awwww... :( Ha ha. Mos Burger got afew from other countries one, and yeah it's pretty fun actually. Not considering how tired it is.

Working there makes me really regretful of my past actions. Remember the times in mac when we were eating, then many a times I'll take many packets of sugar, salt, pepper, sauces, drinks and just play with them? Creating like a big mess? Gosh! It's like I bet the staff had a hard time cleaning. I was too inconsiderate, no? So I've decided from the first day of work onwards, I, Kelly Ng Yuting, shall not play with food & create trouble for the staffs working already. It's really troublesome. :(

Anyway, then I came to realise that actually, many people were nice! Like, many people actually will help you clear everything & clear their trays, then place their clean trays above the area there. Which really helps me. :) Never knew S'gporeans were quite so nice! ofcourse, when there's good, there's bad. When I first started work, the first table I went, I wanted to clear a tray at a table. On closer look, I realise that there were still food lah. But I like didn't know how to turnback and walkaway at that time. (First table, mind you) So I ask to clear, and that guy actually was so unfriendly! He talked so soft, or did he even talk? Then later he repeat, and gave me that type of STUPID FACE! Felt like slapping his face , seriously.

Whaaaaat else, k can't remember. But we work for the experience lah, so the pay's like only $3.50/hour. Although BurgerKing's was like $4/hour, we chose this outlet over. 'Cos the people at Mos were like nicer, also cause we rather work at Raffles City then at EastCoast. Inconvenient abit eh? Somemore, here we can choose our own work schedule! :)

And seriously I really have to lessen on the vulgarities. And sometime ages back, someone and another, told me like I act cute? okay that was the time I actually was considering of deleting the blog, friendster or msn. Then later I realise I could not bring myself to do that. Cause to me, it's like I don't even know I act cute, and I really don't get why they'll say so. Gwar, okay whatever. Why bother, right?

I can forget him completely,
I will forget him completely,
I shall forget him completely
No, not every a single bit of that arse-face,

nor those moments ...
Nothing.

Edit (9.50pm) / Mummy's steaks are damn good, with lotsa veggies I loveee! :)

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Earlier, HSM2 was playing on television.
Somehow or another, i think this song's lyrics
kinda fits my mood I guess ?

But i still think HSM/s alittle lame ... :X

Troy – listen...

Gabriella:
I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged
Its so hard to say, but I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay...

Chorus:
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here;
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.

Don't wanna leave it all behind,
But I get my hopes up and watch them fall everytime
Another color turns to gray
And its just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away.
I'm leaving today cause I've gotta do what's best for me,
You'll be okay..

Chorus:
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here;
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.

Troy:
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Gabriella:
What about trust?

Troy:
You know I never wanted to hurt you.

Gabriella:
And what about me?

Troy:
What am I supposed to do?

Gabriella:
I gotta leave but I'll miss you.

Troy:
I'll miss you.

Gabriella:
So I've got to move on and be who I am.

Troy:
Why do you have to go?

Gabriella:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

Troy:
I'm trying to understand

Gabriella:
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now

Troy:
I want you to stay

Gabriella:
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

Troy:
What about us?

Gabriella:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

Troy:
I'm trying to understand

Gabriella:
We might find our place in this world someday but at least for now,
I've gotta go my own way,
I've gotta go my own way,
I've gotta go my own way..