100% retarded computer

I hate my computer. I hate it. I dwanna lose date inside. Everything's inside!

Gonna repair soon, i hope. Tamama. Feel like getting lappy. but the idiot have all my data inside :( Wahlao.

Have been having pretty hectic nights. Friends been staying, late nights fun and such. Life's been pretty fab. but obviously, when there's fun there's some down times also lah. I've been drinking alot recently. I really hope i don't get a stomach, i'll kill myself for that! I realise i don't get drunk. But i get alil tired, and my mood will be more lifted. So that's a gd thing, right?

I keep hearing Over you nowadays. (the song lyrics at the mainpage - nice right!) although the song's like old lah. Idknow, i hear it like i hear myself. Y'know ...

Sigh. I shalln't let anyone affect me. One day i shall be super happy and prove the world wrong! Hahahaha! :D Ask, and you shall get.

My feelings pretty mixed right now. Like when i'm angry i force myself to be forgiving. when i'm sad i force myself to smile. Sometimes, i totally think i belong to woodbridge lah whatdf.

K, i owe lots of pichas. Damn computer. I scared by the time i post, it has no meaning already lol. Zzz this is also sucha semi-retarded post. my gosh.

Sometimes i really wish i can just tell everything to bitches. but there's smth stopping me, reallyreally. maybe it's not time
How do i fill a empty heart, how do i fill this emptiness. Where do i find the purpose to life. Where do i find happiness. When can i break this barrier/wall surfacing. How do i put everything to words and stop being so lame? Idknow, it's suffocating me. this sucks. Is it really so hard to find reasons to live once you lost them? I need my life back. I've to stop feeling so lifeless. i dknow what i'm doing. Idknow what i'm typing now. I'm losing it. Someone, what should i do? what can i do?