悲哀

I'm feeling very empty now, it's like missing smth but yet you don't know what is it - that feeling.

It's very hard to understand what you don't even understand yrself
And times like this... i really miss all my bitches
Rmb how we could find purpose & life in going out... even if it's everyday?
I really miss (what is this word), much
I haven't seen all of them for sometime alr
much less, an outing with all of us

Heck everything i'm trying to say man...

On a lighter note,

I cabbed to school today, again. I really don't wanna be late i wanna change!!! I'm still working hard on it, but bad habits die hard lah wtf. Reached school and i realised that there were no Ong to catch people! Wth right, waste my $zx!

School celebrated cny today.
Realised the class hoody is Pink & Black and we got a prize for the noticeb (cny) and we all got a small notebook each hahaha!!!
Was supposed to do flyers in the aftnoon, but cancelled cause boss call the shots and he told us to do on 5th day of cny onwards...

Hopefully meeting best people later.
And my leg is hurting like mad (ytd's fall)
My leg looks so ugly now and it's really super suay 'cos Cny is coming and no matter how nicely i dress, my leg is hideous!!!

It's hard to change things when you're the only party trying... and when the others are getting on with life. Not literally that meaning but... forget it. Things'd change alil atleast, i guess. I wish i knew how to express myself with words better. And it doesn't help that i prefer talking to myself (blog) than talking abt it 'cos when it's time to say it out you can't rmb what you'd wanted to say. Yet when it ain't the right time to say you feel so much like saying...